elkemay

a journal on loss

~the journal~

 

~every girl's dream~

 

~a family:  & it's my turn now~

 

~the brutal manipulation of my body~

 

~yielded five embryos~

 

~feeling lost & alone, panic sets in~

 

~and then the loss hit like a brutal storm~

 

~the cold remains~

 

~and me~

restoring balance...

it's been a challenging month~ and in it's wake i've been tumbled around and left rather out of sorts.  at the tail-end of it i was lucky enough to spend a day in the company of some loving, inspiring and wise women during a live SouLodge with the amazing Pixie Campbell at Teahouse Studio.  Medicine for the soul indeed.

~with sacred tools~

 

~we circled up~

 

~and our journeys began~

 

~visited by otter:  woman medicine~

a gentle reminder to welcome play & stop worrying

 

~surrounded by love:  Roslyn & Maya~

 

the next day i had offered to take sweet Ma in search of some Elk Medicine.  Maya has been so generous, supportive and inspiring since I met her in the woods of New Hampshire at Squam~ I wanted to give her back some magic.  In true generous Maya style she turned it into an early birthday celebration for me and invited a bunch of other lovely beings to share the magic with.  I love that about her.  we spent a magical day out at pt reyes national seashore.

 

~zipping past fields of magical hues~

 

~we arrived at the trail~

 

~hardcore hiking ensued:  barefoot~

 

~connecting with kindred spirits: Stacy~

~laying the foundation for a sweet community of sisters~

 

~a community where we support one another~

 

~where our strength lies as much in our similarities~

 

~as it does in our uniqueness~

 

~we allow ourselves to play & laugh~

 

~and help one another see there is always a way out~

 

 

~we celebrated~

Pixie Campbell & Anna Stid

~surrounded by Elk Medicine~

 

~and welcomed a heavenly show~

 

a truly blissful weekend that reminded me of the healing powers of nature, friends and ritual.

 

and through the lens of sweet Alara Castell:

 

 

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A special thanks to the Teahouse Ladies:  Mati, Stef, and Tiff for hosting SouLodge!