learning to just be...

~he came back to visit & remind me~

that i am on the right track. 

"squirrel teaches you to plan ahead....to gather and store your energy for times of need....reserve something for future use....."

"squirrel has another lesson which can aid you if you observe what is obvious, and which can prepare you for anything.  it has to do with the safe place in which to put your gatherings.  this safe place is an untroubled heart and mind, and that which is gathered to put in this place is wisdom and caring.  the energies gathered will set your mind and heart free, so that you will know that all will be taken care of in its own time.  apply this to your fears about the future and they will vanish."

squirrel medicine card

 

~learning to apply my brakes~

i warned him when he put on the brakes that i had no brakes.  that once i see potential i jump in.  that i am reckless with my heart.  and i saw potential.  and i jumped.  and midair i realized that you had stopped allowing yourself to fill the lake with all you have to offer.  and for the first time, i realized i could find my brakes, and learn to use them.  and i did.  and it doesn't mean i care any less.  just that i can't do this alone.  and it's out of my control.  and i'm ok with that, for the first time in my life.  there is no desperation in my bones.  no deafening ticking of a clock in my ears driving me to action.  no urgency in the beating of my heart.   just a sweet sense of calm.  letting what will be, be.

 

~my fabulous finds at the creative growth exhibit~

 

~print by ray~

rabbit has been all around me.  in my dreams.  in my art.  it is the year of the rabbit.  my motto for this year is to be open-- to say yes!  when i say no, it's usually out of fear.  rabbit symbolizes fear. 

"stop talking about horrible things happening and get rid of 'what if' in your vocabulary.  rabbit may signal a time of worry about the future or of trying to exercise your control over that which is not yet in form-- the future."

rabbit medicine card

 

~mr birdie by kay~

 

~another fabulous piece by ray~

the squirrel takes on many rabbits!!! yay!!!

 

~disappointed~

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~not devastated~

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~i'm still blooming~

 

~not hiding~

 

~not frightened~

 

~there is so much to notice~

 

~so much to explore~

 

~so much to stumble upon~

 

~adventures to be had~

 

~journeys to take~

 

~work to be done~

 

~people to meet...this is ferdinand~

 

~nice rack:  my kind of beamer~

 

~back to Pa's houseboat on a drizzly day~

 

~safe~

 

~open~

 

~ready to board: but my ship's not in~

 

~and for once, i'm not worried about running out of time~

 

~a reminder to just be~

 

~am i waiting or ready to go~

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acknowledging my thoughts.  but not letting them affect me.  no need to react to the future, it's not here yet.

 

  ~there are treasures to be found in the most unlikely places~

 

~other options to be had~

 

~pt orient~

 

~on my way out~

 

~mr big head pufferfish~

 

~he's happy~

 

~a magic wall~

 

~she's watching over me~

 

~even though i'm strong~

 

~& my potential is great~

 

~for finding beauty~

 

~everywhere~

 

 

~and inside~

 

 

~out of the darkness~

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once again, i find myself out of the darkness.  the deep darkness that swallowed me whole and numbed me to life.  this time i have emerged with new strengths.   wisdom.  a heightened awareness.  a sharpened vision.  a deeper thirst~  for life, for fullfilling my dreams, for finding and creating depth.  it's a wonderful place to be.  me.  right now.

 

 

 

 

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such a gift you have to constantly be open to the beauty in and around you...to feel the sadness, hurt, loneliness and in the next moment have space to appreciate the endless sky above you or a moss-filled crack in the sidewalk. love you girl